I spent an entire day reading, crying, searching, and digging in my bible in search of answers. I did find them. God is always available - and I adore this. I found scripture that I'd read before, but it had never been quite so illuminating as it was that day. I've also been reading a book that God placed in my hands, "Healed Without Scars" by David G. Evans. It spoke to me at Goodwill. With my having had so many surgeries - and the emotional scars of my life... well the darn book jumped into my hands. It has been exactly what I needed. It is a book about spiritual healing through Jesus through our faith, and belief of His ability - and our accepting that healing. WOW. If you've read my blog, you know that with my physical pain, the trauma that I've been through - this is like a testament to the Lord in intervention. There is even several chapters (which have blown my mind) about making the transition from out earthly fathers to our heavenly Father. This is pure divine intervention. It is exactly what I've been going through. Tell me that my Father isn't telling His daughter, He knows her heart. I'm humbled by His Grace, His love and His compassion for my iniquities.
I could easily stop there, however there is a chapter dedicated to faith. I like any human struggle with it at times. I'm learning to lean not unto my own understanding -- for my wisdom in most situations, spares me little solace. It is the mind of God I want to know. The only place I'll find that is in prayer and in His word.
I discovered about faith however, is that we are to have it more when we don't have it. To believe when we don't believe. To be expectant of great things in our lives when all seems bleak. As crazy as that will sound to an unbeliever. Life, the management of it - isn't about mulling through it were a mere job to complete to get to the end of the shift. I do that sometimes, we all do. I rarely do it now, because God has shown me how to rise above that mediocrity. I expect the unexpected. I dream for the impossible, and await my next miracle. The bible is FULL of miracles, I know that they occur -- why would I not think them possible in my own life? I know that in an instant, God can supernaturally (because He is God!!!) alter the conditions of my life at any given moment. I've left the days of fear -- anxiety, bewilderment, and malaise. I can have the kind of hope that moves mountains in my life. There are things happening now that I never thought would happen -- and my heart desires more, and my Lord knows this.... Ask and it will be given to you...
I've had my temptations as of late as well. They are always there. I'm having to work on myself on a daily basis. I've found quenching in this scripture: 1 Corinthians 10:13
"No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to man, but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but will also make the way of escape, that you may also be able to bear it."
I think that is awesome. He's made a way for our escape! He's made us able. This gives me such hope.
I want to live an "anticipant" life. I want to see life in terms of what's the next great thing that's going to happen. It just makes one be able to breathe in peace. My Lord came that I might never see death - and that we would have life -- and have life more abundantly -- to save us from strife and turmoil. In knowing this, if I see bad days, I'm choosing to do so. He brought me the ability, strength and opportunity to have peace. He gave me a comforter. That is the most amazing thing, most heartfelt thing to me, on earth. My own personal Holy Spirit. How precious.
Encourage someone today. Hug someone - be the light they can't see. Dispense hope in a sometimes hopeless world. Remind people that miracles still happen. Lighten someone's burden. Be the blessing that perhaps someone's never had. Most of all, have hope, have faith. Believe in the goodness of God - for ALL good things come from God. Take it from someone who's had it manifest in their own life, God wants to give you the desires of your heart. He loves you that much, and oh, so much more..........